I would love to make a deep, up-lifting comment. But sadly I myself am in no way in any condition to do so. Depression fills a huge part of many peoples' lives, including my own. I've suffered through two particularly nasty depressions, as has my mother, my now-deceased aunt, and both of my uncles. Ontop of that, just about everyone around me is currently getting hit by tough anxiety like my own, so shit tends to come crashing down quite a lot. The upside to this is that to some extent, most of my friends recognise that its something thats immensely hard to deal with, and impossible to snap out of. But still, if you've never suffered from it, theres pretty much no way of exactly understanding just how it feels..
I myself havent read this thread for about two weeks, as I've just felt too indifferent and lethargic to do much of anything. So I've just been sleeping alot recently, and being unemployed has left me in a position where I can do just that.
And then theres the insomnia which keeps me up till 7 in the morning, but thats a whole 'nother ballgame. My point is: Drose, we're a bunch of people here whom understand you and know what you're going through (again, only to some extent. These things tend to differ wildly from person to person, or even from week to week.), and we all (atleast, I do!) love you. I do care quite a lot for many people on the server, as you guys have become some sort of secondary family for me. And I must say, you guys have helped me through a lot of shit way more than you can imagine. So thank you to every single one of you.
I dont know how I'd live without Elts constant trolling and cock-creating above my builds!
Anyway, enough of my mad ramblings. I hope you're doing well enough considering everything, Drose. Hope to see you on the server sometime soon. And if you ever do need anything, you can always PM me, find me on Facebook or Steam, or hop onto the server, as I'm on... Alot.
My thoughts are with you and I hope you'll get through this as un-scathed as possible. We're here for ya'.